Saturday, July 28, 2007
One week past since it has happened.
Cooled down quite alot,
let that be the first and the last time for me.
No more repetition of it. I hope.
idiot *
1:12 PM
0 braindead
Thursday, July 19, 2007
Yup, one week has gone by.
Neither really contacted nor even met up anyone. I guess I am alright now. Been keeping things simple for myself, getting to my usual self.
idiot *
10:16 AM
0 braindead
Saturday, July 14, 2007
Shutting down.
Feeling very weak now, damn vunerable if you would ask me. Breaking down, mind shuts off, isolating up. Slap me awake if you would, please. I want to wake up from this bad dream, get back to my daily rountine life if necessary. Not being able to manage my thoughts, my emotions, my studies, my work. Basically everything. Bringing worries and trouble to all around me. "All of us care so no matter whatever you do. we are there. But do know that there is a limit to everyone's patience." This words are ringing in my head. Cant bring myself to think rationally, just cant get rid of them empty feeling in me that I dont belong anywhere. Deep down I know its not true but just cant stop that nagging feeling. It sucks. After today, after tonight, tomorrow is a brand new day, I am going to try to stand strong, stop my nonsense, stop bringing trouble to people. Just a matter of how much time it would take & how its going to be handled.
idiot *
5:35 PM
0 braindead
Thursday, July 12, 2007
Waking up everyday with a heavy feeling in it, can't get it off my chest.
It's clogging up, musch harder to gasp for air.
Things are becoming stale inside.
Hadn't had such feelings for a while.
Not sure what's happening in me, seriously.
Keeping a blank mind, but just seems lost in space with a feeling that weighing me down.
Asking me "What's wrong with you? Talk about it, you will feel better.."
Questioning myself, I don't even know what's my problem.
Why do I feel this way, Why do I behave that way.
The big "Why" is revolving around me but I have no answers for it.
I have stopped thinking.
Family,
Friends,
Work,
School,
Myself.
I just want to a break.
Would it be better?
Would it ever happen for me?
idiot *
11:51 AM
0 braindead
Monday, July 09, 2007
Happy.
That's all I wish for.
Make my wish come true...
idiot *
1:58 PM
0 braindead
Monday, July 02, 2007
Had one of the best weekend spenty so far though not exactly on sky high all the moment but still great. Had the usual "kopi-ing" sessions we always did, though this time round it involved some alcohol for a while.
When on to the next day where we met up again for the next round of enjoyment. Went over to MOS, so long since I last stepped into a club.
The no smoking stance has been implied & all the smokers all looked so cramped up in the pathetic smoking area.
LOL!
Saw two familar faces there, Garant and Jia En.
Also got to met up with my sister, Carene!!! Sure will miss u babe, flying off soon this sunday ya...
idiot *
11:44 AM
0 braindead
