.happiness.saddness.anger.loneliness.bitterness.

Monday, December 11, 2006

When with Kenneth and his classmates to MOS on Saturday night, actually still got some sec sch mates, but they came too late, & didnt join in the queue. First thing when reach was like, OMG! The queue was all the way to Liang Court! Best was, my phone low batt and the reception there was so bad, couldnt even call out...walkin up & down the stretch of queue saw my french class fren, then after walk again saw my elective fren. Haha...then finally kenneth called me and my fren, Sky brought me to them.

Manage to squeeze into the club, but on the verge of fainting first... Oh man....but getting in wasnt that great after, too many people, everywhere you turn, you bang into people. Got a guy in green shirt and snow cap asking me my age & name -.- Turned to Kah Lun for help...haha. Ended up on the second level cause is really too squeezy, met Sky there again. Party my night to my content & left with kenneth at 2.30am. Went to Mac, cause he hungry and saw my GEMs classmate there!!! Haha, one night I see so many people...

Whole night I kept thinkin of things...

Time to give up?

Mayb the difference is just too great...

idiot * 10:10 AM 0 braindead

Friday, December 08, 2006

Arh...suddenly thought about my wish list for Christmas. (Which I dont suppose I will get it anyway)...

But anyway, first on list a watch?

*Orange, digital adidas

Second NUM tank top...

*White based ~Brazil~

Third...

*a GREEN bikini (like my jacket colour) ???

More???

Cant think much actually, the best wish I can get is not what I can get anyway...

so far away it doesnt even exist I suppose.

Can I ever get what I wish?

What a Christmas I am looking forward to... sighs...

idiot * 1:23 AM 0 braindead

Thursday, December 07, 2006

Some many things happening within a short period of time. Once again... why is it always so that one comes and the rest follows? Is it coincidental or is it jux all on purpose? Though not directly my problems, but still its all people I care about.

Oh darling, you make me worry the most, once was enough, but now again its happening, that time I wasnt there yet this time, I am here yet there is nothing I can do. I am so useless...

Have I learnt to accept the fact? Its been a year, I dont know what I am doin at all, "I am too independent" this phrase really made me think alot, am I really so? Yah, I guess when I think of the things I do. Seems like I dont even need anyone there for me, so used to being by myself. No one to fall on, no one to do all silly things. Its tiring to wait, it just brings you down mentally...

Christmas is coming, am I looking forward to it? NO...nothing special this year at all, just another bad year, exceptionally bad, losing so many love ones...grandpa...byrick...my tutor, Mr Lim...

...all is gone...all is lost...no turning back...

idiot * 10:09 AM 0 braindead