Saturday, December 31, 2005
21 hours and 55 minutes more to a new year! And so, the end of 2005 and the start of 2006, hopefully this coming new year will have more blessings and may a New Year brings New hope too.
Counting down the time left
As the clock goes tickin away.
Hoping to put away all the unhappiness
With the start of a New Year...
idiot *
2:03 AM
0 braindead
Thursday, December 29, 2005
Visited Jean Jean at NUH tis mornin, got admited due to viral infection on both her feet, but is home now, recuperating. Her mood is low, I dont know what I can do to cheer her up, but hopefully her thoughts will sort out.
Anyway, met Elaine in the afternoon at marina for a walk, wanted to get a gift for Alan, but couldnt manage to find a suitable one. Oh, Alan and me seems to have sorted out the misunderstandings and are on "messaging" terms..hahaha, cheers!
Then went over to Bugis, where Elaine met Hong Yu and I meet Heng Giap and his sis for movie. Watched King Kong again, cuz his sis havnt caught the movie, and I wanted to catch the movie again (miss king kong alot!). Yet again, I cried in the midst of the movie when King Kong met up with tragedy.
idiot *
12:46 AM
0 braindead
Thursday, December 22, 2005
Caught "King Kong" last friday (16/12), my long awaited movie! Was initially suppose to catch this movie with someone else but things happen and of course nature take a turn in its course... Anyway caught it with all my best buddies, the "Blue Ginger Gang"-- comprising of, Elaine, Jean, Hong Yu, Kenneth, Kah Lun, Joel, Dawn and me for that night.
The movie, to me, was so damn great! Though the starting was kinda boring, but the ending was so touching! (I cried lox...>.<) Of course there were comical scenes of king kong as well. OMG, I'm so in love with the movie! (King Kong....)
Just caught "The Chronicals of Narnia"(21/12), evening show at 9 plus. Movie was equally great! Or maybe I was anticipating for both movies too much le. But it was really great! HA! This time round, watched it with Heng giap, alan, andy and their friends ( Blue Ginger Catering side). Abit last minute, cause they suppose to play bball one, then i say got time go down see, in the end became movie. Anyway since I de-schedule myself from work cause tired, so I join in the movie lox. After movie share cab home with Heng Giap and Alan, talked and crapped our way home...
idiot *
3:21 AM
0 braindead
Sunday, December 11, 2005
Nothin seems to be turnin out right. Feel like a bitch now, bringin nothin but trouble to people around me, causing big messes, yet unable to clear it up.
Why?
Because I am fUckin USELESS, thats why...
I'm sorry for bringing about all these, whats the best solution for all now? I am not sure either, mind is just in state of confusion, unable to rationalise, unable to come with a conclusion.
"Think carefully", "no regrets", "what is it you want?" all these words flooding my mind... Like I knew, if I did, wont I have already given my answers?
idiot *
5:37 PM
0 braindead
Wednesday, December 07, 2005
Lost myself somewhere along the way,
Lost the path,
Lost my sense of direction.
Darkness decending...
Unsure of what to do,
where to start off,
where to head to,
why is it all like this?
What happened?
When did it started?
Why?
Questions raising constantly in my head...
Kill me...
idiot *
8:37 PM
0 braindead
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
Have I stopped it for real?
Unsure
But definitely, yes for the time being
Hopefully so...
Things feel different
Like I lost an important friendship
You should know who you are
Yes you..
Lost myself at the same time
Isolating bit by bit
Dont need the company of anyone
Just want to be the loner me
Could you grant my wish?
Let me be?
I dont know how to say
Just dont feel happy anymore
More of pressurizing...
idiot *
6:39 PM
0 braindead
Monday, December 05, 2005
Nothing really special, just a normal day's blogging.
Woke up early to get ready to go to Central Kitchen at Bedok for catering. Damn was the bus ride from Holland to Bedok long, sat on bus 7 till my butt burnt. Met Heng Giap and Alan at the interchange, felt kind if weird for I have never met them before, but since I dont know the way to C.K, no choice. Nothing much at C.K, jux load up the stuffs, met with Tommy and Mun Kiat. The 3 guys took a cab down to Siglap, I followed Letty and Mun Kiat on the truck.
So the procedures are the same, unloading and doing settings lox. Felt a little bored caused only me one girl staff with the 3 guys. Didnt do much for setting, then started the dinner. Was very simple, didnt have much to do. Most of the time hiding behind the kitchen with tommy and heng giap eatin away the duck wraps and KPT. Haha... Left early at 9 plus cause really nothin to work!
Mun kiat sent me to east coast chalet, my sec sch chalet. But most have left when I reached, only left Biyu, Clara, Joyce, Keng Ee, Jie Qi, Sufyan, Joanne and Ginny. Played card the whole nite till 5.30 am when Clara's dad came to sent us home. Remember I forgot to get back my wine opener, with Heng Giap now, will meet up one day to take it back... just another borin day, having MR paper tml, back to studies...
idiot *
5:46 PM
0 braindead
