Sunday, January 29, 2006
Thursday... Kendy was sick, but still I have Biyu and Clara to celebrate it with me. Went to Marina Sq after my FM test. Had our dinner at Changing Appetite, so "qiao" saw our Sec sch mates, Yong Ling and Raimi. Haha...My god their NY cheesecake is heaven man!! Got to get back there and have it again one day!! Friday... Met Brian after school, went to Bugis shoppin. Bought me a shirt at Pink Panter as gift. Went home after lunch to change before goin to meet the Gang. Actually was to go NYDC de, but last minute change, make reservation at Blue Ginger! Abit the sad lah, only got Jean, Cat, Kah lUn, Joel and SL to dine with. Elaine and Hong Yu cant make it, Kenneth too tired. Nvm...at least still happy, got Dawn! Happy thing is I did talk with the Penguin and had small conversations, its more than enough. Well, we all cut the cake and then went for midnite show, "Fun with Dick and Jane"--> damn hilarous! Saturday... Only slept for three hours. Met Eunice and went to sentosa. Then went to Marina Sq shoppin, bought two shirts before goin home. Then went down for renuion dinner lox. Come home cut cake, dun wan talk abt it. Only someone noes the truth abt tis part...Sian!
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5:51 PM
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Monday, January 23, 2006
Once again, I screwed up this part of my life I supposed. Haix, whats the bloody problem with me? Always doing all the wrong things at the wrong time, projecting all the wrong things... I'm sorry, really, cause I didnt mean it & I really didnt know... Sorry. Dont feel good at all, partly cause I'm sick again, havin sore throat, flu & fever. But mostly I guess is the mistake...
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12:19 PM
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Sunday, January 22, 2006
Wait, waited, waiting... Still will wait. Wait for the day to be noticed, to be recognised. How I wished I can read one's mind, then I dont have to wait in such a manner. Threw the hints but no return. Is it all but nothing of empty hopes???
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1:14 AM
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Tuesday, January 17, 2006
Say it out! That's what I really want to do, voice out everything, but I cant.
No, I cant, not everything, that I have the courage to face it and do it, what's more its about feelings. Something that I am always tied down and reluctant to show it out for fear of negative. Once in a while, hinting is what I can try, but its always without vaild, no response. Dejected!
Failure man! What a failure... so once again, we shall wait, and wait to try. Perservance! That's the way, aint it so??? Ha, hopefully it is.
idiot *
12:41 AM
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Sunday, January 15, 2006
Ouch! Feet pain man! This is the after effects of playing bball without proper shoes --> barefooted! Good thing didnt develop any blisters, only bruises... was playin at Queenstown CC from abt 4 plus to 9 plus, excluding the rain. Its like how many months since I last had any contact with bball, was so happy playin it again, was with Heng Giap and Alan, acc them to Queensway shopping mall, then when to the CC to play. Their friends came a little later after the rain and we had like 4-on-4 with the pple over at the CC. Dont really like those pple, but I'm still so in love with bball!!! OmG! :D
idiot *
12:39 PM
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Thursday, January 12, 2006
How do you know how others feel about you?
Through their action?
Words?
Attitude?
How do you tell others how you feel then???
idiot *
6:14 PM
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Friday, January 06, 2006
What's the real meaning of friends?
Can anyone tell me?
I cant figure it out,
So frustrated by it.
Suddenly have this realisation, some friends come and go. Some stays by you forever. Some, is jux a moment of friendship? Its seems to me I have so many of these "moment of friendship" which brought me so much happiness for a particular period and then with just a pass of time, this connection just disappear into thin air.
Tired, I am tired. Tired of having such feelings over and over again, only able to think of the happy moments back then, smiling to myself and feel the pain once more back in reality.
How I really wish now, wish for someone to lend me a resting shoulder, take me away all sadness, into happiness...
idiot *
8:31 PM
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Wednesday, January 04, 2006
Start of a new year but everything's still the same as ever. Nothing new, life still the same only carrying it with a sort of tension and stress. Stop working at wine connection i guessed, Byrick's not there anymore, no motivation. Anyway have to start preparing for the finals. So, mayb its better this way, just hang in there till Byrick new wine shop open!
Till now, cant really get hold of myself to think it out what's it I really want. Decided to change, but then not really sure if I have started the path to change. Maybe.
Felt that I had a new motivation in life for a while there, but it seems to turn out to be false hopes, is it so? I aint sure. If it's true, obviously I would be happy and work towards it. But nevertheless, let's just hang in there and wait and see....
Caught the movie "Family Stone" on New Year Eve with Heng Giap, Alan and Andy plus friends after count down with S4. Funny and pleasing movie though I did not understand certain part.
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10:59 PM
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