Saturday, November 26, 2005
Started work at Blue Ginger abt the start of May. Here's where the story starts, a story that's filled with so much unforgetable memories.
Near 3 weeks after I started, the Bali exchange student came in... Nyoman. Together, we learnt the ropes, enjoyin ourselves in the meanwhile and facing the mistakes we made. Couldnt really catch a grisp of your English at first cause it was quite bad. But you learnt it, for the past half a year, you improved so much. You were always there for me when I am in trouble with Alan, hearing me out, helping me out.
At work, your hardwork is recognised by all. Workin without breaks, doing all chores without complains. After work, you join us in our nonsenses, fooling around with everyone, partying... How can I ever forget this friendship we built? Regret not sending you off at the airport, but glad that you had message me once you had your phone in Bali. Everyone misses you so dearly, this bond we shared for the past 6 months cant be washed off simply...
God Bless You, watchin over you ever so, protectin you, pending to the day we can do the things we did again... take care my fren :)
idiot *
4:40 PM
0 braindead
Sunday, November 13, 2005
Memories of me when I was younger was ever circulating only with my parents.
The comfort of my Mum's love,
The warmth of my tiny hand in my Dad's.
Almost like a 24/7 attention, 365 days.
Time past, growin up, growin further apart.
Unknown to my life and changes I been through.
Isolated from them,
Keepin everythin possible to myself,
Hardly open to them.
Venting my frustrations,
With hurt,
With pain,
With sufferings,
All nothing but a word of foolish-ness.
Grown to live in a world of friends.
Only ways to find happiness
I am wild
I am playful
I am stubborn
I am rebelious.
Learnt the bad
Forfeited the other side of me
Learning to change
Forgoing the addicitions
That's what I shall do.
idiot *
3:32 PM
0 braindead
Friday, November 11, 2005
Supposely to go home straight but in the end, accompanied JJ, kenneth and Kah Lun to Tanjong Pagar. They had to work, me? Free like nobody's business. Really dont know if hanging around that area is doing me good or bad. Cant explain this feeling I have in me whenever I am there now. This yearn to enter the place like the good old days but yet held back by the dreaded feeling, the fear. Dont know WTF should I be afraid of, maybe just didnt want anyone to be unhappy anymore.
As long as others can be happy, I am alright with it all, is this foolish-ness? Not at all for me if you ask. Blue Ginger, just like Sistina, so dear to me, practically my home. But just like Sistina now, the shelter is no longer vaild. Open to the harsh reality once again. Once again, I am facing the same hurt, the same pain in my heart. No one knows how it is burnin up in me, a feeling that cannot be put into words, cannot be expressed. Tears flow with these thoughts, heartache like the lost of love.
I miss my work, I miss the times. Nobody will understand. No one is me, they are not me to get a feel of whats burning inside me.
I wait, wait to enter, enter this "home" once more. Waiting for it to open its arms once more...
idiot *
3:33 PM
0 braindead
Sunday, November 06, 2005
Are people ever contented with the things in Life?
What is the meanin of satisfaction?
God gave us Life, gave us warmth.
Yet people are never contented with simple things,
They pursue for more...
Feels so tired at times. Trying to satisfy everyone with whatever little might I have which usually turns out to be useless. Being a fool, trying to play God for only seeing people around happy do I feel happiness in me. Silly as I might be, throwing every fault as my own but it usually started cause of my wrong-doing or thoughtless doings. Tryin to resolve things as I caused it but sometimes only makin things worse. Never a good planner, never good at words, never able to do things right. That's just me..the silly fool.
idiot *
4:24 AM
0 braindead
