.happiness.saddness.anger.loneliness.bitterness.

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

Seems like yesterday, but yah, one month has passed. When over after work to the road side with Jil just now, saw the lily still there, added my handmades one and Jil left the choco bar. Sat along the railings and had small talks. Still we felt it so impossible, so impossible that this could have happened just along this stretch of road.

Thinking about last night, was so mad at someone whom supposely have no connections. Thought that my mind was clear, but well, I tried to drown in beer but it didnt work, guess my 151 trainings had good effects. At least I didnt create any scenes whatsoever, only someone saw really different side of me after. Am surprised at myself that I would reacted that way. Have I or have I not given it all up on everyone? That makes me wonder, cause I dont have the time nor do I have the heart to try anymore. Its tiring, its hurtful, its futile.

idiot * 2:39 AM 0 braindead

Sunday, October 08, 2006

Its just seems like yesterday that I heard of the news, but now, 2 weeks have passed, everyone is picking up well, supporting Tasting Notes. Just came home from work over there not long ago too, trying to learn my wines again which I stopped mid way. Tasting the wines, asking people how each wines is like. But then, the best part for tonight, once again, I was asked by a customer where is Byrick. Though unexpected and stunned again, this time round I was more composed. But just cant bring myself to say YOU have left us.

Running between both ends is getting to the limit of me, tired I may be, but still I am happy, cause both work place is like my family. I cant do without them. But my friends are equally important, though arguments may arise but after a period of cool down, it would be better wont it? I might be to preoccupied right now, but slowly I make my adjustments. Likewise, my emotions are not haywired, just that certain things happened too suddenly and unexpected, I aint cold blooded, it hurts me of course I would cry, I would feel down. But give me time, by a weeks time I will be strong again. I have no one to rely on now, only to stand on my own if I fall. I will be strong.

idiot * 4:03 AM 0 braindead

Monday, October 02, 2006

Eight days have passed, slowly gathering myself up. Seeing Jil standing strong for Tasting Notes, I must also do so. Tasting Notes' the final memory and dream of Byrick's, togther with everyone, we will make this dream live on. When down to the accident area togethe with Biyu last night, at the stretch of road outside Henry Park, saw the stratches on the railing, some how still in disbelieve of the accident at that point of time, but still you have left us. Gave a white lily, your favourite flower.

Things arent all that smooth for me now, getting weak from all the long days, falling down le... Many unhappiness I brought to my close ones, I am so sorry darling, how I wish I could tell you exactly my feelings, but whatever I said, the meaning just doesnt turn out right, so I guess I have to take things slowly and let it cool down...

idiot * 11:28 PM 0 braindead