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Rants of Everyday Life
.happiness.saddness.anger.loneliness.bitterness.
Friday, November 11, 2005



Supposely to go home straight but in the end, accompanied JJ, kenneth and Kah Lun to Tanjong Pagar. They had to work, me? Free like nobody's business. Really dont know if hanging around that area is doing me good or bad. Cant explain this feeling I have in me whenever I am there now. This yearn to enter the place like the good old days but yet held back by the dreaded feeling, the fear. Dont know WTF should I be afraid of, maybe just didnt want anyone to be unhappy anymore.

As long as others can be happy, I am alright with it all, is this foolish-ness? Not at all for me if you ask. Blue Ginger, just like Sistina, so dear to me, practically my home. But just like Sistina now, the shelter is no longer vaild. Open to the harsh reality once again. Once again, I am facing the same hurt, the same pain in my heart. No one knows how it is burnin up in me, a feeling that cannot be put into words, cannot be expressed. Tears flow with these thoughts, heartache like the lost of love.

I miss my work, I miss the times. Nobody will understand. No one is me, they are not me to get a feel of whats burning inside me.

I wait, wait to enter, enter this "home" once more. Waiting for it to open its arms once more...

idiot * 3:33 PM 0 braindead




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