Thursday, August 04, 2005
everyone has a different way of expressin their concerns, different ways of doin things. I, of course is no different from the rest. I dun probe on to ask u wats wrong. cuz if u wan to tell, u will tell. I dun wan to irritate the daylights out of anyone. Is tat wrong of me to not ask? but my concern doesnt drop a single bit at all! I am still there, though i agree i might not always be available, but pls understand tat i have my own commitments tat i have to adhere to. i cant possibly be everywhere at one go? i am restricted...constrainted. I am happy when i see pple happy around me...but saddness also encompass me when there is someone sad. I noe i am not good at words, i dunno how to comfort a person well...but still i can be there juz a accompanyin u if possible. I dun understand sudden outburst. A moment happiness and the next comes saddness or anger. I wont noe wat exactly went wrong but neither am i null to the surroundings or the change of emotions. As much as i would like to noe wat happened, i dun dare to ask...i wait to be told. In the past, i tired askin but all i get is nth but crude remarks back for no particular reason, becomin the "thing" to vent anger on. It hurts u noe to read abt smth tats say do i really mean wat i say. of course i mean wat i say...but pls understand i have certain constraints. Its not always abt me only...there is always alot of pple around as well...see how one will put n see the picture.
Yes, i am hurt. Yes i am sad..by the comments tis time made. i tried to show concern but i got questioned back instead. if u were me, how would u feel? i dunno...it hurts.
i aint complainin neither am i blamin. its jux my thinkin. after today is still another day, i will still be happy..but only happier when i am somewhere else...u noe where? :)
idiot *
6:34 AM
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