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.happiness.saddness.anger.loneliness.bitterness.
Wednesday, June 01, 2005



wat the f**k am i doin lox??!! i hate myself now...so so so much...fallin into depression mood so often thinkin of it. i dunno wat to do..really... who can save me? i wan to find the best way without hurtin u...but i dunno how... its not like there is anythin wrong with you..but its my problem. wat someone once told me has been recurin in my mind so often now...i am too playful too wild, i dun control myself n jux dun bother but give all the way to enjoy n do wat i wan. i show attitude if anyone stop me from doin wat i wan. but tats not the point...i dunno wat i wan in life anymore. i am living in my own dark world again from time to time..only gald to have pple around me to keep me from fallin back. i tot goin back to sch n not workin much would make a difference but it seemed worse...i tink n tink n tink every lec. dun even noe wat the lessons r abt. feelings no change but i am refrainin myself...i mux b gettin psycho...i ask for advice... i feel like i am living in hell right now...really really wan to break down...really really wan to cry. i feel frightened...frightened to go n msg or call or do anythin...force myself not to tink of it. i dun wan to brin it up tat nite, i dunno if i will regret like wat jennifer say...but i tot mayb its better tis way. i noe i am a damn selfish bitch...i do as i like without considerin others...but i also feel miserable...i dunno how to tell others... always actin like nth happened...how strong can i get? i cant face him for now...i dun have tat face to see u...i see other pple...y r they so lovin? y am i such a idiotic bloody person???!!! argh!!!!!!!!!

father, if u ever hear my prayers, y do u not show me the light? i feel so lost...

idiot * 9:29 AM 0 braindead




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